mother's hand and softly said, "Mother, I don't feel wronged. Now that your identity is exposed, Zhang Shi will certainly tell Empress Cen the news of you being alive. I'm afraid Empress Cen will be a..."Hearing you say this, I feel quite sorry for the current emperor." When he first became emperor, he brought Empress Shu into the palace as his empress dowager, intending to use her to suppress Duke Dugu. But now she has him under her thumb, and I wonder if he regrets his decision.

"The Emperor Yuan Zhao should have thought about this happening when he took the Empress Dowager into the palace. This is all his own doing."

"Before she became Empress Dowager, when she was still a Princess Consort, it wasn't like this. If she hadn't entered the palace, she wouldn't have ended up where she is today."

Feng Lingxi sighed, she still remembered how her mother-in-law treated her when she married Dugu Cheng. She was even better to her than her own mother. But now, not only had she lost this mother figure, but even Dugu Cheng was gone as well.

"It's too late to say anything now, the Empress has changed. Be careful yourself, Dugong City specifically instructed me to remind you to be more careful."

"He…" Feng Lingxi hesitated for a moment, then asked, "He must be very sad, right To see the Empress like this."

I didn't want to get involved in Dugu City's affairs, but when I thought about what I had said before—that I wanted to know what happened five years ago—Feng Lingxi told me that all of this was for the sake of understanding the truth behind why Dugu City drove her away.

When she thought about it this way, she felt much better.

Of course I'm sad, if you were in my shoes, wouldn't you be sad

Lu Nian lowered his voice and said, "His military power was taken back by the Empress Dowager. At the time, he trusted the Empress Dowager and believed that after taking back his military power, the Empress Dowager would make arrangements. But the Empress Dowager proposed that you return to the capital after taking back the military power, saying that keeping you in the capital would prevent the emperor from suspecting him too much."

"What does it mean to leave me in the capital"

Feng Lingxi was a little confused. Seeing Lu Nian sigh, she felt uneasy in her heart.

"What else could it mean, imprisoning you in the capital What do you mean"

Feng Lingxi swallowed nervously, some couldn't believe it. Five years ago, the Empress Dowager already had the idea of killing her

She had once treated her like her own mother, even after she lost her memory and became the Empress Dowager. It shouldn't be this bad, right

Dugu City rejected her, the Empress was very angry, saying that the emperor would move him, hand over his military power and you, could temporarily ease the situation, but since Dugu City refused, the Empress had the intention to kill you, wanting to get rid of you, but all those sent out were solved by Dugu City's people, so the Empress quarreled with Dugu City. After that, the Empress tried every means to deal with you. Dugu City was afraid that he couldn't defend against it, so he thought of pretending to have a different love affair, letting you leave him.

Lu Nian saw Feng Ling's silence and continued, "Dugu City knows that as soon as he has another woman, you will definitely choose to divorce him and fly away. He then came to me and negotiated a plan for you to divorce him and then take you away, whether it's to Xi Gu Guo or somewhere else, the Lu family will take care of you and protect you, no one can harm you. But none of us expected that you would disappear."

When Li Wu Yan sent me to the parting road that year, I didn't see anyone come to pick me up. I walked for a long time and later met my master, so we went to Xigu Country together.

Feng Lingxi omitted many things in the middle and didn't want Lu Nian to know and worry about her.

"Then why didn't you think of looking for me back then Didn't you really have your big brother in mind"

"No... I..."

Feng Lingxi, seeing the grievance in Lu Nian's eyes, explained, "I was quite lost at the time and didn't think about these things at all. After meeting my master, I became pregnant and also discovered that I was poisoned. My master told me to live with him in seclusion in the mountains, honing my medical skills in the process. At the time, I had nowhere else to go, so I agreed. It’s just that life became comfortable, and I didn't come out."

As a top figure in the medical field, being poisoned without knowing it, and at a time when she was pregnant and about to leave, Feng Lingxi admitted that she had not thought about contacting the outside world at the time, ignoring many things. But she really couldn't do anything at the time.

"At that time, after being poisoned, I was both angry and annoyed. Besides, because of my pregnancy, the situation was special, so I focused on following my master to detoxify. After giving birth and raising children, I also helped them detoxify. Five years passed in a blink of an eye."

"It seems you've had a good five years. As for us, when we heard you were gone, we nearly turned the whole world upside down. You wouldn't believe how guilty and responsible I felt while you were missing."

Lu Nian recalled the past, her eyes dimmed.

“Especially Duguxing, he thought you were dead. He searched for you fruitlessly, unable to sleep or rest. He looked everywhere for you day and night, all while being schemed against by the Empress Dowager and the Emperor. When he finally found no trace of you after searching everywhere, Duguxing went completely white-haired in a single night. If I hadn't seen it with my own eyes, I wouldn't have believed that he would do this for a woman.”

"He really went gray for me"

Feng Lingxi clenched her fists, although she had heard about it long ago, she still couldn't believe it. Dugu Cheng loved her so deeply, he had never said to her "I love you" or anything like that. And sometimes what he did made her doubt his feelings for her.

"Could I still fool you."

Lu Nian recalled, "I still clearly remember, that day Xianglou searched everywhere for you, but there was no news at all. It was as if you had vanished into thin air. Dugu Cheng had dealt with the Empress Dowager and the court, and he was being impeached by the current prime minister anyway. He was already exhausted. That day, Xianglou's informants said they had searched everywhere but found no trace of you. Dugu Cheng collapsed, cried out in pain, and then stayed alone in the courtyard. The next morning, he went grey."

Feng Lingxi listened to the plot like a story, as if it were a dream.

"Big brother, do you think I don't love Dugu City"

Feng Lingxi chuckled wryly, looking at Lu Nian with eyes full of bitterness.

"He gave up so much for me, but I thought he had fallen in love with someone else and left him. I…" Feng Lingxi bit her lip, her nose sour with pain.

"I feel so stupid. I thought I was so cool and collected, but in the end, I fell for his trap and left him alone to bear all of this"

Feng Lingxi increasingly hated herself. Why didn't she hold onto Dugu City back then and make him drive that woman away Why did she choose to walk away self-righteously, why didn't she believe in Dugu City's feelings for her

Now, he's become like this monster just for himself, and she still despises him. He doesn't even get a chance to explain. Feng Lingxi really wants to slap herself twice, and Feng Lingxi did just that.

Two loud slaps echoed in the air, leaving Feng Lingxi's head buzzing. But she didn't think it was enough.

"Why are you hitting yourself"

Lu Nian jumped in fright, immediately grabbing her hand and looking at Feng Lingxi's swollen face, feeling furious.tation. She watched her put down the bowl, and Feng Lingxi picked up the bowl and sniffed it at her nose. This medicine was to dispel cold poison, it seemed she was right, there was indeed cold poison...